Win Should Have Waited Longer to Reply...

I very recently committed myself to helping someone out with a particular need. While the "need" seemed legitimate at the time that person asked for the help, I subsequently discovered upon further conversation that it's not really a legitimate need at all, but rather a "want" fueled by what I see as that person's childish lack of personal responsibility. Although I didn't say anything at the time, now that I've had some time to think it over, I realize that I don't really want to help that person out any more, considering the irresponsible reasons for his request. It's too late in the night to call back and attempt to release myself from this commitment, explaining my reasons and allowing him to respond. So should I just text him and tell him that I'd rather not enable his foolishness? (well, I wouldn't actually text that phrase exactly, but something explaining my reasons in so many words...) Or do I need to honor my commitment regardless, even though I now feel as I was steered into making the commitment before having time to think about the justification for that person's request?

That person did say he would call later to confirm whether or not the need still exists. Please work in his mind and heart to show him the folly and selfishness of his request before then, and please guide him to do the right thing, that which is most pleasing to You. Please help me to do the right thing, too.

Win Will Be Unrepentantly Serious on This Blog

So it occurred to me last night that I should not be worried about anyone reading this blog and believing something about me that I would have rather kept wrapped up. When I consider what Randy taught this past Sunday -- that prayer is the avenue through which I wrestle with and eventually surrender to You in the areas of my life where I struggle -- I remember that it was for that very purpose that I started this journal to begin with. That being the case, it doesn't matter what people think about me if they read any of this -- the goal was to write a continuing open letter to You where I would be honest with You about my fears, frustrations, and shortcomings, as well as my hopes, my victories in Christ, and the times when my faith in You does not fail. While that could all be accomplished simply with a written journal, we started this so that I would have somewhere to write while I was on break at work, and so anyone chancing across this page and possibly struggling with my same struggles can perhaps encounter You even in some small way. I let my pride shift the focus of this journal off of You, and for that I am sorry.

Still, I know You don't intend for all of my inner thoughts to be solemn all of the time, or even serious whether times be good or bad -- this is simply the wrong avenue for my frivolous musings.

To anyone who might still be reading then, be aware that this page will include some very frank conversations with the God whom I serve -- the God of the Bible who is One with Christ Jesus.

For the frivolous stuff, just go to the other page... http://starkravingblog.blogspot.com/

Win is Still Awake

Goodness sakes I'm restless... I stayed up late to finish some stuff for work, but it's now 3am, and I haven't done any work for a couple hours now. I'm usually only like this when something's wrong emotionally, but I don't really know what it is... And I'm not particularly looking forward to finding out. ...especially since I have to be at a meeting in less than 6 hours and I haven't slept yet. Yek.