Win's Just Realized Something

Actually, I didn't just realize it -- I realized it last night. More accurately, I've just now found the time to write it down.

In any case...

Until I believe that You love me, I won't be able to believe that anyone else loves me. Until I accept and appreciate Your love for me, I won't be able to accept or appreciate anyone else's love for me. Until I understand that Your love is enough for me, nobody else's love will ever be enough for me.

Please forgive me for not accepting and appreciating Your unending love for me, and please forgive me for trying to squeeze that love out of her. Please forgive me for trying to replace You with her. Please forgive me for not believing that You love me, even when you did and still do, then being angry at You when my efforts failed to earn that love. I know now that I do not need to earn Your love, that my efforts will never be good enough to earn what You in Your grace and power have already freely given me -- help me to believe that. Please help me to understand that Your love will always be enough for me, and that any other person's love is an added gift from You, given through them. Please help me to accept and appreciate Your love, and please help me to accept and appreciate that added gift, too. Thank You for loving me, even when I am at my most unlovable. Thank You for believing in me even when I didn't. Thank You for the way You loved me through her, even when I least deserved it.

If You see fit to give me another chance with her, please help me to love her and value her the same way You do.